So I Grew A Pair And Went

Not really…lol…just a figure of speech.

It took a lot to walk through those doors alone…I was greeted by some with open arms, by other with whispers and remarks, but I stayed through it all.

I learned of a wonderful woman I would have loved to have in my life, and of a woman who wished in her last weeks she had reached out to her only grand-daughter and had her in her life.

I learned where my looks come from…and got some much needed answers…

And I paid my respects to a woman highly respected and much loved by all who knew her.

Would I go again if I could go back in time…of course. Without a moments thought.

I found out the man who gave life to me…isn’t so much a man…and couldn’t even take the time of day to give respect to his mother in her last days, hours and service. So I have closed that part of my life… which after all this time is refreshing… to close a door which was such a wound in my heart for so long… knowing in all odds… I am the woman I am today because I was untainted by this man.

I also got the chance to reach out to those who are in my family… and I will strive to strike a bond with them… before it becomes too late for them as well.

Mother’s day will now forever remind me of my grandmother…a woman I never knew…who loved the world and never had a bad thing to say about anyone.

Rest in peace grandma… and may one day we finally meet.