Depression- The Dangerous Beast
June 29th, 2009
Since I was just really young, I have battled depression… I have struggled with life because of it. I have hurt others and done things very not me because of it. But it doesn’t just end there, see I am manic depressive, so not only do I get depressed I hit manic episodes, and those never end very well…
I’m sorry to those I have hurt, and those who do not recognize me right now. I am sorry for those whose life’s I have altered, with or without them knowing. I’m sorry for the pain, and heart ache I have caused.
My life is changing and changing fast. And today I embark on a better road again. I saw the stop sign screaming past me in the night and have turned around and gone oh shit…and now I will hit the brakes on my life, put things in reverse a bit, repair, regroup and try and get back on the track.
To those I love, I’m sorry.
To those who love me, I’m sorry.
To those whose lives I’ve messed up or messed with, I’m sorry.
To those who know others with depression remember sometimes it’s not them, sometimes it’s just the depression talking, and doing all the walking.
June 30th, 2009 at 8:01 am
For what it’s worth to you…..I’ve been around the block more the once as you’se know. I’ve met just about every type of person out there and you know it. I can honestly say… to you and the world…that other then my dad who you have met…I have never come across a kinder, more genuinely good human being…then you….Sylvia Rolfe. I truly hope that joy you have brought to my life will boomerang back at ya, girl! Cuz it’s gonna be hard for us to be depressed when we’re sippin’ frozen margaritas on some beach…laughing at all the fucked up tourists! Vegas Vince appreciates all that you are…more then you will ever understand. You have made me a better human being on all levels, Syl….and your spirit keeps me going on my own down days. Thanks girl…from my heart….cuz words will never be enough to thank you for all you’ve done for me. Keep that chin up and those shoulder movin! xxx