Curl Up And Cry

Why is it when life is going the best, that things go so wrong?

Why is it that when everything should be so perfect in your life, things go so wrong?

At this point in life, I should be happy, I should be excited. I should be jumping for joy, because years of hard work, pain and suffering seem to be paying off. But instead I feel like I could curl up and cry.

Why is it when things I never thought I would acheive are at my fingertips, I feel like everything is slipping from my grasp.

I never thought I would ever have the money to get my little boys the help they need, and suddenly it looks as those it could possibly happen. The amount of money made my heart sink when the words came out of the nurses mouth. $5,200 is more money then I can afford to just throw down at any one time. But thanks to Lend4Health and wonderful people I should be able to do it soon. And for that I am eternally happy.

Yet, so many people are so mad in my life. And I am doing the best I can, to give my everything to everyone, and try and leave a little bit for me, for my own sanity. And do my best to maintain my sanity while I’m at it.

I should be celebrating today. I should be jumping for joy…but instead, I want to curl up and cry.

Thank you everyone for all you’ve done and all you’ve given me. I hope I can give you all something back that’s worth what you’ve given me.

Thank you again, everyone.